~F@c!nG tHe WoRLd 0f Re@L!tY~

~@happily ever after@~

2007-07-07T22:59:00.000+08:00

even tho it's wkend..but i'm so tired of going out 2 enjoy de day n nyt out..but 4 2day..i wen 2 plces..but it takes a while wen i'm out ther..1st of all: wen back 2 my sec skool, havin band prac wif de Dunearn band..well..consider my 2nd n my last prac b4 de cncrt..de actual cncrt is on 14th July..dat's nxt wk!! OMG!!!!!! i juz practice a few pieces onli..but hopefuly i can manage it well..n not 4getting..i miz my juniors as well..hmm shld giv'em a treat 1 day..it's a promise.. :)

2ndly: aft band prac..met wif my guy fren 2 pass de tix..den stret away go hm 4 a while 2 change my other outfit..IT'S MY OLD SKOOLMATE'S ENGAGEMENT DAY!!!! so glad dat she's inviting me..juz wondering how nice 2 get engage @ dis tym of age..hahaha..mayb i got jealous 2 see it..well..not my tym yet..2 her: i wish long live till jinjang pelamin..hehehe..so wat i can do now is to share my hapiness :)

PLEASE STOP ACCUSING ME FOR NO REASON..DUN LET ME HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-07-05T22:06:00.000+08:00

Juz recently I’ve a fight wif my mum..i juz hate her n accusing me for nuting..i knew myself well..cuz lately I’ve been cmg hm late @ nyt..i juz dun understand y n wat mor does she wan me 2 do??? Most of de tym if I stay out late..i wil call her up wifout fail..but @ de same I’ll be telling where m i? juz only dis wk..both of us r making attitude twrds each other..n especially on wed..juz happen recently..i came back hm a bit late..n @ dat tym I reach hm nearly 2 8..mostly arnd 7 plus I’ve reach hm..but bcuz due 2 my bill dat I wana pay up..i didn’t noe dat de queue was long..it’s not dat very but juz de nrml long..n dat makes held up juz bcuz of de Q..n it happen 2 b aft work..cuz usualy aft work..i rushed dwn 2 SingPost n make my payment ther..aft completing evryting dat I’ve settled..stret away I wen hm..den I realised dat my hse gate has shut wifout let it open..den I wnder if mum’s not hm..since I’ve no hse key..no choice but 2 stay outsyd of my hse 4 mmnt..n @ last I’ve got in @ 8.40p.m..juz imagine dat????? I was totally MAD @ my mum..i’ve said nuting..but my actions told evryting..n she told me dis: NEXT TYM DER’S NO NEED 4 U 2 CUM BACK!!! N wen I heard she said dat..i juz feel lyk scolding her..it’s useless 4 me 2 xplain 2 her..n NOW she’s accusing me 4 nuting..she knew nuting wat de hell I’m doin out ther..didn’t gime any chance 2 xplain..stret away jump 2 de conclusion..i juz throw watever dat is in front of me..i even throw de bill on de table..i cldn’t care less if she wana luk @ it..as long as I’ve done my part n dat’s it..cuz it’s my responsibilities 2 clear up wat’s not done.. N dis mrng happens: I’m out 2 office a bit late 2day..due 2 I overslept..so I wen out @ 8.25a.m..den I do xtra work..dat is 2 clear up laundry: wash n hang..wen evryting’s clear..it’s tym 4 me 2 go..but b4 dat..as per usual I kiss my mum’s hand..no mttr how hate I m wif my mum..but I stil respect her..as I was abt 2 leave, she said dis: U’VE CHANGE UR JOB RYT?? DUN LIE 2 ME..CUZ I NOE..IT’S INSYD MY POCKET..i was soooo frustrated, I said dis: SINCE WEN I’VE CHANGED MY JOB?? DUN U ACCUSE ME 4 SAYING IT..U DUN EVEN SEE WAT I’M DOIN EVEN THO U JUZ GOT 2 NOE DAT I’M LUKING 4 JOB..in de end I juz leave de hse wifout even turning back..i’m soo upset wif her..kip accusing me wifout any prove..but wat makes me wonder all de tym..wen can I hv a gd conversation?? Juz lyk de rest of mothers n daughters out ther..i oso wan 2 hv a gd relationship bonding..but it juz seem 2 b can’t..i’m a failure of bcmg a gd daughter..doesn’t she realy wana gime a 2nd chance?? I’m totally upset :’(

single the birthday..double the treat..triple the happiness

2007-06-20T22:30:00.000+08:00

firstly..i wana say thnx a lot to those ppl who've wish me bday greetings..even tho my day's totaly been very down n sucks so much..but my nite makes my celebration much more memorable..hmm..wat i hv for my special day just now? well..had two treats frm my wonderous frenz..1stly: ice kacang..hahahaha..kinda weird but i lyk..2ndly: ice cream fondue n fisherman's catch @ earle's swensens; vivo ct..not expecting any presents for this yr..as long as these ppl who r close to me just wish me will do..n that makes me happy n i'll be smiling all the way..thnx once again guyz..u're most appreciated by me n i'll treasure this frenship..

only 1 ques that i've been thinking..how do i feel wen i turn 20? still childish or getting mature? i dun noe..let de tym tels..hmm..lots of things wana to achieve n to chase..now i'm really thinking seriously abt my future..what will i do next? i've lotsa plans..but can i really get wat i wan? but i believe that what u really want in lyf..u'll have no regrets in the end..hmm..consider that..but wat's most imptly: save up my $$ n i've oredi decided to take up massage course..i dun know y i've this interest..but who noes 1 day i'll b opening up my own biz in both spa n massage co.? hopefully i can b a successful biz woman..hahaha..stop dreaming farra!! but i'll make sure i prove to those ppl out there who simply just look down to my potential..well..think dat's it for 2nyt..hope wat i dream for will be a reality in lyf..

tribute 2 my guy frenz who r gona serve de country very soon......

2007-06-13T22:32:00.000+08:00

hey guyz..especialy 2 my guy frenz out there who's gona serve de country..wat can i say?? 1stly..i wil say of coz i miz u guys from those who noes me 4 a very long time n those who juz got 2 noe me..i wil still contact wif u guyz even tho u guyz r juz in another island..haha..kidin guyz..dun take it 2 heart..n btw..my inspirational words 2 u guyz..sory but hav 2 say dis..SHED OFF UR POUNDS!!!!! hahaha..n i mean it guyz..i'm serious..no joking allowed..n also strive n fight all de way 4 our country..wifout u guyz..we normal ppl can't survive..n mayb can't live in our homes anymor..enuf of dat dramatic messages farra..watever u guyz goin thru..dis person wil encourage u all 2 go all de way thru even if it's a tough one's..c'mon guyz..BE DE REAL MAN!!!!! n i'm proud 2 call u guyz as HEROES..haha..anyway there's some more i nd to update..but kinda lazy..plus sory 4 deleting de previous post n dat shldn't b post it out..4 those who've read it..juz kip it 2 urself N STOP ASKING ME QUESTIONS!!!!!! so NS guyz-soon-to-be..we encourage u guyz to go 4 it...kip in touch wif u guyz again =)

DUN TALK 2 ME IF U HATE ME..LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!

2007-05-22T22:28:00.000+08:00

so wat if u hav oredi know de true side of me?? wana leave me?? wana hate me?? b it..niwae hu care's abt me tho?? so wat if i dun hav a fren?? or mayb none @ all?? no one ever knows..i'm living in the world of my own..i'm feeling hapi..sad..suffer..depressed..laying low..living in places full of darkness..do anyone knows wat i've bn thru?? in fact: NO..so if u guyz out der wana leave me 4 GOOD..go on..my door is open 2 all hu wana leave de FRENSHIP door..n wat do i get in return?? NOTHING!!! i'm not even apreciated by anyone..no one will ever know wat m i goin thru ryt nw..u guyz say watever u wana say..i juz can't b bother anymor..anyway hu wana hav a fren hu's nuisance..lying 4 personal stuffz n shits?? i hav my own reason y i do dat..wat i know..i'm hopeless..can't even put up my smiling face..u guyz hav read it..so whether i'm still exist or not..u may consider it..frens juz cum n go whenever dey feel like 2..so juz 4get me 4 having a fren like me..better preferable b on my own world..

I'M NOT A SMALL CHILD ANIMOR!!!!! I ND FREEDOM 2 DECIDE MY OWN WAY N FUTURE!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-04-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

i juz dun understand y my mum wana cntrl my decision-makin..y doesn she giv me any chance 2 decide on my own?? i'm big enuf 2 hv my own brains 2 tink..i dun mean 2 b rude..bt juz tink back..wen wil i hv my own decision-makin??? i noe i've bn wastin my $$ wen i've recv my salary/alowance..bt @ leas nw i'm tryin my best 2 learn hw 2 save up..cmon la..giv myself a bit of decision freedom..i wana learn 2 b a bttr prsn..i'm stil young adult..reachin 2 adult stage..i nd 2 learn myself 2 b cntrled..

plz mum..if u wan me 2 understand u..plz understand me as well..i'm nt a small kid animor..stop tritin me lyk one..4 once n 4 all..

tryin 2 understand..but it seems dat i can't n dun reali wana understand

2007-04-18T22:27:00.000+08:00

i juz duno y is my head kip tinkin abt it?? but deeply i felt myself so regretful of aceptin my fren baq..wat is dis?? i juz dun understand y muz relationship b her 1st priority in her lyf?? wher's de frenship dat we hv juz built?? dun u rmmbr we've oredi 4giv n 4gt on each other?? HAVE U 4GTTEN ALL DOS TINGS?? wat r u actuali trying to do?? livin 2geder wif him n juz 4gt me LYK DAT?? how cld u..wen in tyms u're in dificulty or hvin probs..u cum 2 me..but nw..it seems lyk i've disapear frm ur lyf..is dis wat u call frenship??

it's bn a veri long tym we've nvr bn out 2geder as b4..u'll wait 4 me..n i'll wait 4 u..den we hang out aft skul..hw i miz all dos outings 2geder..bt nw u make it shater n dun tink cn fix it baq..i noe hw hard 2 mit each other since we're wrkin in diff plces..bt dat doesn mean U'LL 4GT ME AS UR FREN..if u fil dat hvin frens r nuting 2 u..den tink agn..we used 2 share evry single moment..no mttr hw painful de xperience is..ask u agn..is dis wat u call TRUE fren??

wateve it is..hpe u'll hv a hapy lyf wif him..i dun even bother 2 noe wat both of u guyz goin thru..if u tink dat i'm stil exist in ur lyf as ur true fren..den bttr tink it hard enuf..dun trit me as ur rubish..hpe u understand wat i mean..if u tink dat i hurt u..den tink once agn..who's de 1 hurts de moz..

whole day of slack..boredom..sleepy..n yawning!!!!!!

2007-04-17T21:42:00.000+08:00

hmm...wat hapen tdy?? nuting much bttr 2 do @ wrk..call all de folow-up clients..hping n praying 4 appts..n dar it goes..i've made it tdy!!!!! dis wk i've 3 appts 2 mit up..hpefuly dun giv dem de shitty luk of mine..haha..wel..it's tru: CUSTOMERS R OWEZ RYT..ryt of being so typical customer..byk songe la katekn..btol2 nye sialan..haha..so bad of me farra..den celebr8 a short hapinez of gtting appts.den baq 2 norm..

aft lunch..in fact durin lunch..eat n chat 2geder wif my 2 fdeary colleague of mine..my "haney"s..haha..i've planed 2 go out wif dem 1 day..so b4 dey gt bk..i've made n adv bking 4 de both of'em..hmm..gals, jgn lupe kte nye "date"..5 MAY '07..OUR GALS DAY N NYT OUT!!!!! cnt wait 4 dat mmnt of tym..stil left wif few mins b4 my lunch tym's over..wen down 2 NTUC..bot sm junky..in case i'l go hungry agn..i bot mocha flavoured cookies..nuting bt tings asociate wif coffee flavoured tingy..haha..COFFEE ADDICT IS HERE!!!!!

@ 4..began 2 fil so slpy..I HATE MON N TUES..make me so damn slpy..cnt take it animor..til wen i'm in dis situation?? yawnin n sudden eyes shut of mine..WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lasly..i wen out n take a rest juz outsyd my ofis..den bot de junky agn (doughnut)..haha..cnt stop filing in my tummy..nt much of wrk n leads..so total super slack tdy..

n b4 i sign off..gt myself prepare 4 tmr's appt..n thnk GOD i've n appt in de aftnn..gt plenty of tym 2 spnd in de ofis..dats all guyz..reali wana go 4 n erli nappy..haiz..nw i noe hw it fils 2 b in a wrkin lyf n nvironment..BORING!!!!!!!!!! chiao 4 nw..

wat a hard working n day 4 me tdy

2007-04-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

haiizzzz....so damn sleepy aft came baq frm wrk tdy..fils lyk der's no more energy 4 me 2 cont on wrkin..@ wrk..kena scoldin frm de mgmt..wth..our co's sales nw is d'creasin day by day..BUCK UP PPL!!!! die2 muz increase de sales baq 2 norm agn..

hmm..wat hapen juz nw aft wrk?? directly go 2 westmal 2 pay up my bill..den wen baq 2 my previous wrk plc..haha..where is it?? ENG WAH CINEMA..mit up my x-colleagues..hd a short chat wif my x-mgr..VINCENT..haha..stil rmmbr dem..wel..miz dt plc n de ppl so freakin much.lol..xcept 4 1 dat dun reali wana 'MIZ' so much..dat idiotic n pathetic "R"..hu miz him niwae?? n dat point of tym..i'm supose 2 mit dis guy..he's 1 of de x-DUNEARN student..haha..juz recently added him 2 my frenster..while waitin 4 him 4 nearly abt 45 mins..@ last he gt 2 show himself up..

met 4 a while..talkin abt de past in sec skul n n sm shitty stufz..wel..nt shitty la..bt mor 2 personal ques..wat we've done..hw many Xs in relationship n all de craps dat we've talk abt..wat's my 1st impresion abt him is reali tru wen i started 2 imagine de real prsn in front of me..i did luk thru 2 my 2000 sec skul yr bk..i luk out for him in his claz..wat makes me so surprised was he's in my 1 of my senior band's clazmates..haha..wat a coincidence..hmm..he's nt bad..gd lukin 2..nt lyk de previous image of sec skul..haha..so de slenge..n overall..he's nice n frenly guy..n ez 2 gt alg wif..haha..btr dun fall in luv arh..kip urself alert..

hmm..i tink dats it 4 me 2 typ it in..totaly 2 tirin n sleepy..*yawn*..tym 4 me2 go 2 nappy..hahaha..dat's it ppl..updatin sm mor soon :)

great discussion wif band mates

2007-04-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

helo pplz..

haha..wndr u ppl out der tinkin weder i'm stil blogging in or nt..de ting is..mos of my tym i'm lazy 2 typ it in abt wat's hapenin..wel..dat doesn reali bothr me so much..WOW!! wat a reali great conversation n discusion i hv wif my band mates..1 of us planin 2 hv a trip in Bangkok..wel..2 me it was reali a long tym since i've nvr stepped in2 dat country..de las yr dat i've "touched down" was on de year 2002..i've bn der 2geder wif my mum n we wen in grp package..haha..4gt abt de past..

we wer discusin abt de trip..n we're nw in a procez of planin it..de budget..acomodation..trspt..n lots mor..it seems lyk i cant wait any longer 2 go out of S'pore on my own..reali miz my own trip so much..as in goin trips on my own w/out any cmpanionship(my parenz)..haha..i reali miz my sec 1 band trip 2 Sydney..loads of memories came 2 my mind ryt nw..hw i wish i wana travel wif my band mates agn..cut de crap farra!!..haha..we're all planin 2 go @ de end of June..it atracts me abt hvin 2 travel agn on my own..our objectives nt only 2 hv holidays..bt oso 2 hv music xchange..hw wonderful..niwae,i've nvr heard bands in Bangkok..bt wat heard..dey're talented n pieces dey play is so clean n smooth..jz lyk de original recordin..hmm..hpefuly i gt 2 mit dem IN PRSN..

k guyz..juz a short story dat i cn share wif u guyz..it's late n i hv 2 go 2 wrk tml..signin off nw..

confusion plus disappointed n been PUNKED!!!!!

2007-02-28T23:41:00.000+08:00

last wed..
i wen out wif "J"..in de 1st plc i gt myself so shocked n didn now dat dese tings wld hapen 2 me..here's de story gos lyk..las wk i came baq frm skul arnd 5.30pm..wen i've reach hm..i receive a call..it was frm HIM..i was a bit surprise by it..so picked up his call..in de end..i gt 2 acompany him 2 NOKIA srvc ctr @ causeway point..ape taknye..he's reason was not only 2 acompany him..but "it's bin a long tym since we've nvr met n i miz u"..huh????? wat's dis supose 2 be mean?? haven't he now till now dat i've oredi had sm1?? wel..he's juz bin wanting me 2 change juz bcuz i've attitude probs 2wrds him b4 previously..duh..i dun giv a damn..

reachin @ causeway..
we wen stret 2 de srvc ctr 2 take de "Q" no. n while waiting..we take turns 2 "visit" de toilets juz 2 do our own "biznez"..wen both of us r ready..we stil waitin 4 de "Q"..while waitin..we juz chat among ourselves..n during dat incident..all of a sudden..he pull my hand n hug me..wat i can tink of @ dat tym was "Does he noe dat oredi atached 2 sm1??"..i try my veri best 2 avoid his actions but de mor i gt far away frm him..de nearer he gt 2 me..i was 2 scared 2 ncounter all dese agn..i myt fall in2 his trap agn..@ de same tym..i kip tinking abt my deary huby.."J" do dat thruout de way..n he even DARE 2 kiss me on my forehead (plus my cheeks n lips) n my hair..isnt dat TOOOO MUCH?? YES IT IS!!!!! all tink was 2 avoid him all de way thru..bt cldn't..wat r dese supose 2 b mean?? hoping me 2 get back 2 him?? juz let de nature takes it's cause..i dowana predict anyting..i had enuf of all dese..

baq hm
he sent me hm..bt b4 dat..we drop by mac near my area (bukit batok west) 2 hv our lyt dinner..n guess wat?? he trit me n @ las..so watever i ask 4 by using his $$..ahakz..i'm so glad man..once we've had our dinner..tym 4 me 2 return baq hm..n ONCE AGN..he KISSED me..OMG!!! i didn xpect tings 2 hapen jz lyk dat..i'm gting myself so weried as i'm stil tinking abt my deary huby..2 clear all my doubts..i called my huby up..i told him evryting..he seems 2 b so disapointed aft i've told him..bt @ de same tym..i ask 4 4givnes..n evryting seems 2 b baq 2 norm..miz u so much huby :)

next day
i send msgs 2 "J" juz 2 tel him dat it's bttr of we trit each other juz frens..n wen he gt 2 now dat me n my huby gt in2 relationship..wah!!!!!! melenting smcm..he gime a call n he scold me (plus he pulling myself down) juz 2 hurt my feelings by saying all dat..i juz ignore watever he says..@ dat point of period..i duno y i'm so sensitive..he juz put down de fone lyk dat n me: THROWING my fone away n gt scratched..i juz reali hate de way he trit me..few mins ltr..he called me agn (ard 4 tyms) n i kip on rejecting his calls..in de end..he msg me dis: "dun weri k? i wont scold u..promise.."..n dun even bother abt his msg..lasly i switched my hp 2 silent mode (w/o vibration)..while i was out n otw baq hm..he called me agn (w/o fail)..n dis tym rnd..i've no choicce bt 2 pick it up..N GUESS WAT PPL??!! he's juz trying 2 test my PATIENCE..ISN'T DIS REDICULOUS?? wth..wat's mor..he said dat he knew i've relationship wif my huby..seriously i'm in no mood n my response was juz humming all de way..i was totaly PUNKED by idiotic "J"..wel now..wat i cn juz do is 2 avoid him all de way..i dun even wana mit him..i'm juz tooo scared dat i myt fall in2 his trap agn..may ALLAH hears my pray n gt away frm him (of possible)..wel dats it folks..hope it wont hapen agn..

welcum back 2 my BLOGGY WORLD!!!!!!!

2007-02-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

hey ppl out der...man...reali miz my bloggy so much...it's a very long tym i've nvr blog..wel...watever it is...i'm hapi 2 typ in wat i wan...abt my lyf?? hmmm..let me tel u guyz smting..it's binso long since i remain SINGLE n guess wat?? i myself hv sm1 dat's oredi acept me...dis guy's name "R"...wel hw do i gt 2 mit him?? it's a very long story but sweet intro abt both of us..i myself can't imagine dat i belonged 2 sm1 elz...actuali dis is not wat i wan...i juz feel lyk i wana b single all of my lyf...i miz all my SINGLE freedom wifout any tinking any of bgr probs...but nw i can't do anyting..wat i can do nw is 2 pray 4 our hapinez...n dats wat i ask 4 in my lyf ryt nw...toking abt nw..soon i'll b graduating @ ITE n hpefuly i gt in2 POLY...NGEE ANN POLY...HERE I CUM!!!!!!!! wel...dats it 4 2nyt...i'll b beter off blog soon...more stories cmg up....

total miserable....

2006-05-11T12:16:00.000+08:00

i hv no more words 2 sae..my lyf now is totally shattered..kate pepatah melayu: bagaikan hati retak seribu..i've lost evriting again..no more smile..no more jokes..n no more frenz..i'm all alone again..it feels lyk it's beter 4 me 2 b in my own world..a world whereby full of darkness n glum..it hapen again n again in my lyf..y must dis hapen 2 me? truthfuly i hate 2 b wat i am..y must i break their heart..their trust..n de frenships dat we juz build? y am i so cruel 2 dem? how long can i b dis way? 4EVA??? it's tru..dis is de most cruel prsn dat u hv eva met..i deserve it 2 b hate by ppl around me..

2006-05-08T11:54:00.000+08:00

2dae..
nuting much..juz a bit of teachin lesons here n der..start de claz @ 11..wow..new semester..new tymin n can go back erly evryday..YAAAAAYYYY!!!!! bt nd 2 remind myself 2..loads of work nd 2 b submitted..from my religious projects 2 attachment report..haiz..here it cums again..dese tings r waitin 4 me 2 b done..oooh ya..4gt 2 tel u guyz..now my claz no longer called "S.E"..but 2 b called as "S.O"..or mayb "asshole"..hahahahaha..

saturdae..
wen out wif my mum 2 sheng siong @ wdlands (besyd de old custom checkpoint)..since der was an elction tingy..spent lots of kitchen stuffs n sum of my own stuffs 2..bot my new sandals n cheap(skate)..but worth it la..haiz..so tiring..wen back n out again 2 my 1st sis hse..juz wen der otw 2 mosque 2 listen 2 syarahan @ aL-Khair in CCK..miz my nephews n niece..whole dae of outing..so damn tired n sleepy..hahahaha........

fridae..
wen out wif azman 2 accompany him 2 dis interview job 4 only 1 dae (Vesak Dae)..both of us wen 2 mediacorp 2 take my $50 voucher..once i open up de envelope..i found NOT 1..but 2 $50 VOUCHERS..in total: $100!!!!! WEEEEEEEEE....n dat voucher i received was from m1..i duno wat 2 do wif it..mayb i ask azman 2 help me..aft dat..we proceed 2 eunos intchnge 2 mit his fren..gt 2 noe her 2..her name's ain..she's very chatty but nice prsn..2geder wif dem, dey ask me 2 join along 4 de interview..n it's actuli abt donation..dey nd 50 ppl (both students n adults) 2 involve in dis ting..it's @ muhammadiyah..so de 3 of us wen 4 it..n nd 2 bring de tins back hm..haiz..i tot nd 2 b reported der on de spot..nvm la..stil i nd 2 do amal jariah..gd 4 me..hehehehehe..den wen back hm..btw i wen out wif dem aft skul..

oooh ya..de previous post i deleted sum of de words dat cant b read..hehe..sori guyz..

hErE'$ ! @m....b@cK 2 BLogg!nG woRLd!!!

2006-05-04T12:09:00.000+08:00

whoa ppl out der..it's bin a veri long tym i neva blog..damn..wat a big change 4 me n a big change in my lyf..wel aft de breaking off tingy..new tings hapens 2 me..met lots of ppl out der waitin 4 me 2 gt myself mingle arnd..hahahaha..esp wif my band ppl..i luv dem so much..dey r my heart n soul of frenships..wat wil i b if i dun gt a chance 2 mit 2 noe dem beter..hmmmm..nw my lyf has bin more livelier dan eva b4..wel der's sum1 encourages me 2 do tings 4 de beter..nd 2 improve on my music theory..lots of it i nd 2 learn n 2 noe..hmm..i'm luking 4wrd 4 nxt band prac..

L@sT Wk Of SkUL!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-27T16:42:00.000+08:00

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2dae my 1st paper: BCM...
late 4 cmg..gt stuck in de jam in 2 places..opp IMM n clementi ave 6..wakau..i'm so damn frustrating..tmr mut go out of hse early..luckily got tym 2 take n finish de paper on de spot..no skipping of ques..

fridae @ ITE Simei...
lots of un wif my sect..tuk lots of pix n videos taken..lots of acting..hahaha..cant hold on 2 my tummy..wats goin on @ Simei?? opening ceremony by de PM..gt c lots of ppl..but nvr c him..gt lots of media cmg oso..well..dat part not so impt..de impt ting is MY SAX SECTION..u all r de best..luv u guys..den got our allowance..but stil not enuf..i WAN SUM MORE!!!!!!! hahaha..aft de whole tingy..rest of us go watch de movie..except 4 me..hv 2 go back hm so early..afraid my mum's waitin 4 me @ hm..mummy's pet..hahaha..wel..aft dat fri..sat no band prac..got break til nxt wk..hmm..dats all 4 me 2 type in..update it sooooooonnnnnn...

NeW WeEk!!!!!!!

2006-03-20T11:09:00.000+08:00

2dae's story...
onli go em leson..de rest dun bother 2 go..cont wif revision til exam ova..1 wk den go werk..

saturdae event..
nvr go band bt go escape wif noreen n company..lyk bcum "gabra" lyk dat..1st tym in my lyf step 2 escape..go frm mrng til nyt..so fun n exciting..til got myself dizzy n gona throw up..bt tk jadi..hahahaha..veri tired n hv a gud nyt slp...

EnD oF mY LyF!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-16T14:56:00.000+08:00

y??? @ last HE BREAK UP WIF ME...yea..it's true i'm de 1 hu mess up evryting..especialy HIM..he said 2 me directly evryting 2 me..evrytym wen seeing him..MUST
show BLACK FACE 2 him..i didnt do it on purpose..HELO!!!!!!! it's due 2 dis bloody person dat makes me DENDAM 2 de WRONG PERSON...well..hapi giler la dat person dendam 2 my own guy..but watever it is..i dun take it 2 hard..i hv enuf of crying over dis guys..not yet prepare 4 relationship..STUDY IS MUCH MORE IMPORTANT!!!!!! dats wat i can tink inside my head..no more me n him..dats juz de memories..

2dae in de mrng...
so damn frust..a lot of ppl accuse me 4 NUTING..especialy dis ppl r frm @ hm..1stly my mum..accuse me 4 "toking wif a guy @ de void deck"..padehal..i'm doin der 2 study..ALL ALONE!!!!!! anihow onli..den my grandmum accuse me sayin dat "i ask her NOT 2 switch off de toilet lyt"..wdf..i duno y ppl treat me dis way..m i 2 bad 2 bcum a gd prsn?? enuf la..dun 1 2 say it animor..f*** wif evryting..

W@T D@ M!SeR@BLe MoNtH!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-13T14:34:00.000+08:00

AAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! haven prepared yet 4 my exam..got 2 more wks 2 go N dats it..hope so i dun get 2 c my grades go "C" again..so damn miserable..

sunday....
aft my pergas..cum back n watch tv..slp n do my wrk @ my comp..so damn boring sey my lyf..call him frm mrng til aftnn..@ 4+ den he call me..ask him y nvr ans my call..@ dat tym he jz wake up..i was so shocked juz bcuz of dat..wat he do sey until he go out n cum back hm so damn late..my heart stil broken n stil hanging..

saturday....
hd a whole of fun dae n tings dat i hd..aft band prac hd lunch 2geder wif my sax section..b4 goin, i almost 4got my ez-link card..damn it..hw 4getful i am..so de careless..i put it inside my file n 4get 2 tke it out..i was almost n hr late..so i skipped my lunch..i mit dem ltr aft i've found my damn card..den go 2 tamp where we mit samuel n de tuba guy(4got his name)..we play snooker 2geder wif my section n dem..WAH!!! so damn fun..i myself got 2 play it de very 1st tym..@ least i try2 onli..next tym must try again n b PRO..hahahaha....

friday....
got no klaz bt 2 attend de color profiling..@ 1-3..gt 2 release early..must reach simei @ 4..i tot i was late..bt in de end..onli a few ppl came..so damn jialak..met noreen n michelle in de bus..both of'em oso "late"..bt actually not..den we hv lunch @ de cafeteria wif my band mates..de rehearsal starts @ 6..so damn frustrating..aft de whole tingy..go 4 dinner @ TM wif bernita, azman n noreen..den play dis IQ game..i kene test by azman n i was sooo damn blurr..til wen we got back hm..den i got 2 figure out..haiz..mayb due 2 tiredness..hm swt hm..

1 WeEk oF wHoLe StOrY!!!!!!

2006-03-06T14:37:00.000+08:00

hey ppl..hmm..how can i start?? n WHICH is WHICH??

sunday..
ystd aft my pergas tingy..cum back hm n do nuting..i'm slacking nowadays..duno y?? aft so much tings dat cocked up in my head..due 2 emotions.. :(
@ nyt..my mum's not @ hm n i'm all alone..play in de so-called "competition" in favourite radio stn..98.7 fm..purrfect 10!! yaaayyy!!! @ last i win $50 shopping voucher..well..Hutch ask me 2 sing (or supposingly rap) 4 Sean Paul's: Temperature..n i've complete it..huh..tank God i've made it..hv a gud slp last nyt..

saturday..
hd a "cold war" wif my guy..bcmg rocky..i duno wat 2 do..i cried cz he didn't reply my msg nor ansring my calls..wdf..bt in de end..i wen 2 his place..almost nk angkat kaki n blah over der..i saw him wif his bike n park..i walk twrds him n called him.."J"..n calmly he said.."i'm nt in a mood"..i was lyk goin 2 faint man..fancy tinkin more 2 his frenz rader dan me!!!!!..well..jz hope 2 change 4 de better..bt no mater wat hapen..i stil luv him..
btw..no band prac de other dae..@ last got rest..n c dat freakin ***** 2 setle it..dun wana mention it..nt 2 4get..2 my beloved mama..i stil luv u n thnx 4 de bag u beli 4 me..it's niiiiiiiice..hehe..

friday..
cum 2 skul bt no leson..both of my ca were sick..ms sharon got fever aft de bonding session @ West Coast..so bored til hv 2 stay 4 onli 2 hrs in skul..den i go amk 2 mit my x-boy's mum..bt no 1 @ hm so i left a letter @ de doorstep..den i wen 2 mit julie @ jurong east lib..we den go study 2geder..bt diff course n module..i wen back hm early dan her..wah!!!! so2 damn tired..

thursday..
wen 4 de Bonding Session @ West Coast Park..so de hapening man..bt veri tired n fun oso lah..i cant sae in detail cz lots of tings hapens..bt watever it is..my klaz got prize lah..nuting bt crakers n coffee tingy..ape je la..haiz..my project hvn't finis yet..!!!! AAAAARRGGHH!!!!!!!

2006-02-27T22:12:00.000+08:00

back 2 saturday..

met de west ppl (i mean de band mates) n go 2geder 2 simei 4 full-dress rehearsal..wahh..veri de tiring..in my section..onli got me, ash, noreen n kazaf..waliao eh..kazaf nowadayz veli de tokative leh..cant stand him..mayb take over noreen's post liao..hahaha..aft dat..go lunch wif fuzz n noreen @ de cafeteria..poor fuz on dat dae..got fyt wif boboi..haizz..my dear sweet fuzz..dun get so upset wif it..still got us mah..cheer up k..

2dae's tingy..

present all the project n case study..not yet but duno wen 2 present..waet 4 de whole grp 2 b present..zaza nvr cum 2dae..well..all wen fine n no more fyts again..tmr again got full-dress rehearsal @ simei..wah..hvnt studi 4 my exam sia..dat lim can still say "Dun Wori"..wad da F**K man!!! bingit sey me..k lah..watever it is..musnt b late tmr..go n slp now!!!! bubuy..

2006-02-23T15:02:00.000+08:00

2dae..so-called hving lecture wif my CA..again n again abt de group conflict..wel i hv nuting 2 say..watever de past..put all of it behind..hmm..den mit noreen @ de canteen during lunch break..tok it out evriting 2 her..lyk i hv no 1 2 turn 2..but watever it is..be independent @ all tyms..hahaha..cant waet 4 dis sat..mit my band ppl..MIZ U ALL..hahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!

D@MN BLooDy Wk!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-22T10:25:00.000+08:00

4 de past 2 dayz..i've been feelin down all de way..wat de hack man..i hate ppl arnd me..well, dis ppl..A, I, Z & G hv dis kind of feeling dat i'm irresponsible jz bcuz of the em project..niwaez it's over oredi ryt?? Y MUST DEY BRING UP DE TOPIC AGAIN??!!!!!!!! it hapens in my own klaz & i dun reali expect 2 hv dis prob so far..2 tel u guyz out der..it's pain 2 hv broken frenship rather dan breking wif boyfren..nw i hv no 1 2 turn 2 in my own klaz..i jz dun understand y evry gd ppl dat i mit in de end turn up 2 b de hatred 1s..wel mayb i deserve 2 b hatred by ppl since i hate ppl 1s b4..

bt niwaez..hu cares ryt?? i stil hv sum frenz out der..2 my dearest 3 gals..wifout u guyz..i can nvr b hapi again..lurv u noreen, fuzz & janz..dis wk i hv no mood 2 b wif anibody..even wif my own klaz matez..wel..beter dun talk so much..i dun wan ani confession or confrontation animore..chiao!!!!!

D@mN BoR!nG D@e!!!

2006-02-15T14:23:00.000+08:00

talk abt ystrdae..i've upset sum1 whom i reali syg..juz bcuz i'm LATE!!..both of us oredi promise 2 watch a movie..in the end..both of us get cocked up..but still, we met each other n settle the probs..dis is my 5th tym im' spoiling n not celebrating valentine's dae with the prsn i luv..4get abt dat now..

next..had test 2dae..waliao..damn listening comp tingy..so damn stress..den BCM leson..got kena lecture by dis old lecturer n de sect head..both of dem "Best Fren" mah..dat old man wan us 2 work lyk poly style lor..wah..hen mafan leh..well, beter stop it b4 i go very far..hmm haven done my skul projects n assignments..dat's it 4 2dae lah..dowan 2 talk n type so much..reali damn boring..sori guyz if u read dis part..enjoooyyyyyy!!!!!!!!

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2006-02-09T15:08:00.000+08:00

hey peeps..dis is juz de begining part..i'll update more in future..

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