~@happily ever after@~

even tho it's wkend..but i'm so tired of going out 2 enjoy de day n nyt out..but 4 2day..i wen 2 plces..but it takes a while wen i'm out ther..1st of all: wen back 2 my sec skool, havin band prac wif de Dunearn band..well..consider my 2nd n my last prac b4 de cncrt..de actual cncrt is on 14th July..dat's nxt wk!! OMG!!!!!! i juz practice a few pieces onli..but hopefuly i can manage it well..n not 4getting..i miz my juniors as well..hmm shld giv'em a treat 1 day..it's a promise.. :)

2ndly: aft band prac..met wif my guy fren 2 pass de tix..den stret away go hm 4 a while 2 change my other outfit..IT'S MY OLD SKOOLMATE'S ENGAGEMENT DAY!!!! so glad dat she's inviting me..juz wondering how nice 2 get engage @ dis tym of age..hahaha..mayb i got jealous 2 see it..well..not my tym yet..2 her: i wish long live till jinjang pelamin..hehehe..so wat i can do now is to share my hapiness :)

PLEASE STOP ACCUSING ME FOR NO REASON..DUN LET ME HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Juz recently I’ve a fight wif my mum..i juz hate her n accusing me for nuting..i knew myself well..cuz lately I’ve been cmg hm late @ nyt..i juz dun understand y n wat mor does she wan me 2 do??? Most of de tym if I stay out late..i wil call her up wifout fail..but @ de same I’ll be telling where m i? juz only dis wk..both of us r making attitude twrds each other..n especially on wed..juz happen recently..i came back hm a bit late..n @ dat tym I reach hm nearly 2 8..mostly arnd 7 plus I’ve reach hm..but bcuz due 2 my bill dat I wana pay up..i didn’t noe dat de queue was long..it’s not dat very but juz de nrml long..n dat makes held up juz bcuz of de Q..n it happen 2 b aft work..cuz usualy aft work..i rushed dwn 2 SingPost n make my payment ther..aft completing evryting dat I’ve settled..stret away I wen hm..den I realised dat my hse gate has shut wifout let it open..den I wnder if mum’s not hm..since I’ve no hse key..no choice but 2 stay outsyd of my hse 4 mmnt..n @ last I’ve got in @ 8.40p.m..juz imagine dat????? I was totally MAD @ my mum..i’ve said nuting..but my actions told evryting..n she told me dis: NEXT TYM DER’S NO NEED 4 U 2 CUM BACK!!! N wen I heard she said dat..i juz feel lyk scolding her..it’s useless 4 me 2 xplain 2 her..n NOW she’s accusing me 4 nuting..she knew nuting wat de hell I’m doin out ther..didn’t gime any chance 2 xplain..stret away jump 2 de conclusion..i juz throw watever dat is in front of me..i even throw de bill on de table..i cldn’t care less if she wana luk @ it..as long as I’ve done my part n dat’s it..cuz it’s my responsibilities 2 clear up wat’s not done.. N dis mrng happens: I’m out 2 office a bit late 2day..due 2 I overslept..so I wen out @ 8.25a.m..den I do xtra work..dat is 2 clear up laundry: wash n hang..wen evryting’s clear..it’s tym 4 me 2 go..but b4 dat..as per usual I kiss my mum’s hand..no mttr how hate I m wif my mum..but I stil respect her..as I was abt 2 leave, she said dis: U’VE CHANGE UR JOB RYT?? DUN LIE 2 ME..CUZ I NOE..IT’S INSYD MY POCKET..i was soooo frustrated, I said dis: SINCE WEN I’VE CHANGED MY JOB?? DUN U ACCUSE ME 4 SAYING IT..U DUN EVEN SEE WAT I’M DOIN EVEN THO U JUZ GOT 2 NOE DAT I’M LUKING 4 JOB..in de end I juz leave de hse wifout even turning back..i’m soo upset wif her..kip accusing me wifout any prove..but wat makes me wonder all de tym..wen can I hv a gd conversation?? Juz lyk de rest of mothers n daughters out ther..i oso wan 2 hv a gd relationship bonding..but it juz seem 2 b can’t..i’m a failure of bcmg a gd daughter..doesn’t she realy wana gime a 2nd chance?? I’m totally upset :’(

single the birthday..double the treat..triple the happiness

firstly..i wana say thnx a lot to those ppl who've wish me bday greetings..even tho my day's totaly been very down n sucks so much..but my nite makes my celebration much more memorable..hmm..wat i hv for my special day just now? well..had two treats frm my wonderous frenz..1stly: ice kacang..hahahaha..kinda weird but i lyk..2ndly: ice cream fondue n fisherman's catch @ earle's swensens; vivo ct..not expecting any presents for this yr..as long as these ppl who r close to me just wish me will do..n that makes me happy n i'll be smiling all the way..thnx once again guyz..u're most appreciated by me n i'll treasure this frenship..

only 1 ques that i've been thinking..how do i feel wen i turn 20? still childish or getting mature? i dun noe..let de tym tels..hmm..lots of things wana to achieve n to chase..now i'm really thinking seriously abt my future..what will i do next? i've lotsa plans..but can i really get wat i wan? but i believe that what u really want in lyf..u'll have no regrets in the end..hmm..consider that..but wat's most imptly: save up my $$ n i've oredi decided to take up massage course..i dun know y i've this interest..but who noes 1 day i'll b opening up my own biz in both spa n massage co.? hopefully i can b a successful biz woman..hahaha..stop dreaming farra!! but i'll make sure i prove to those ppl out there who simply just look down to my potential..well..think dat's it for 2nyt..hope wat i dream for will be a reality in lyf..

tribute 2 my guy frenz who r gona serve de country very soon......

hey guyz..especialy 2 my guy frenz out there who's gona serve de country..wat can i say?? 1stly..i wil say of coz i miz u guys from those who noes me 4 a very long time n those who juz got 2 noe me..i wil still contact wif u guyz even tho u guyz r juz in another island..haha..kidin guyz..dun take it 2 heart..n btw..my inspirational words 2 u guyz..sory but hav 2 say dis..SHED OFF UR POUNDS!!!!! hahaha..n i mean it guyz..i'm serious..no joking allowed..n also strive n fight all de way 4 our country..wifout u guyz..we normal ppl can't survive..n mayb can't live in our homes anymor..enuf of dat dramatic messages farra..watever u guyz goin thru..dis person wil encourage u all 2 go all de way thru even if it's a tough one's..c'mon guyz..BE DE REAL MAN!!!!! n i'm proud 2 call u guyz as HEROES..haha..anyway there's some more i nd to update..but kinda lazy..plus sory 4 deleting de previous post n dat shldn't b post it out..4 those who've read it..juz kip it 2 urself N STOP ASKING ME QUESTIONS!!!!!! so NS guyz-soon-to-be..we encourage u guyz to go 4 it...kip in touch wif u guyz again =)

DUN TALK 2 ME IF U HATE ME..LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!

so wat if u hav oredi know de true side of me?? wana leave me?? wana hate me?? b it..niwae hu care's abt me tho?? so wat if i dun hav a fren?? or mayb none @ all?? no one ever knows..i'm living in the world of my own..i'm feeling hapi..sad..suffer..depressed..laying low..living in places full of darkness..do anyone knows wat i've bn thru?? in fact: NO..so if u guyz out der wana leave me 4 GOOD..go on..my door is open 2 all hu wana leave de FRENSHIP door..n wat do i get in return?? NOTHING!!! i'm not even apreciated by anyone..no one will ever know wat m i goin thru ryt nw..u guyz say watever u wana say..i juz can't b bother anymor..anyway hu wana hav a fren hu's nuisance..lying 4 personal stuffz n shits?? i hav my own reason y i do dat..wat i know..i'm hopeless..can't even put up my smiling face..u guyz hav read it..so whether i'm still exist or not..u may consider it..frens juz cum n go whenever dey feel like 2..so juz 4get me 4 having a fren like me..better preferable b on my own world..

I'M NOT A SMALL CHILD ANIMOR!!!!! I ND FREEDOM 2 DECIDE MY OWN WAY N FUTURE!!!!!!!!!!!

i juz dun understand y my mum wana cntrl my decision-makin..y doesn she giv me any chance 2 decide on my own?? i'm big enuf 2 hv my own brains 2 tink..i dun mean 2 b rude..bt juz tink back..wen wil i hv my own decision-makin??? i noe i've bn wastin my $$ wen i've recv my salary/alowance..bt @ leas nw i'm tryin my best 2 learn hw 2 save up..cmon la..giv myself a bit of decision freedom..i wana learn 2 b a bttr prsn..i'm stil young adult..reachin 2 adult stage..i nd 2 learn myself 2 b cntrled..

plz mum..if u wan me 2 understand u..plz understand me as well..i'm nt a small kid animor..stop tritin me lyk one..4 once n 4 all..

tryin 2 understand..but it seems dat i can't n dun reali wana understand

i juz duno y is my head kip tinkin abt it?? but deeply i felt myself so regretful of aceptin my fren baq..wat is dis?? i juz dun understand y muz relationship b her 1st priority in her lyf?? wher's de frenship dat we hv juz built?? dun u rmmbr we've oredi 4giv n 4gt on each other?? HAVE U 4GTTEN ALL DOS TINGS?? wat r u actuali trying to do?? livin 2geder wif him n juz 4gt me LYK DAT?? how cld u..wen in tyms u're in dificulty or hvin probs..u cum 2 me..but nw..it seems lyk i've disapear frm ur lyf..is dis wat u call frenship??

it's bn a veri long tym we've nvr bn out 2geder as b4..u'll wait 4 me..n i'll wait 4 u..den we hang out aft skul..hw i miz all dos outings 2geder..bt nw u make it shater n dun tink cn fix it baq..i noe hw hard 2 mit each other since we're wrkin in diff plces..bt dat doesn mean U'LL 4GT ME AS UR FREN..if u fil dat hvin frens r nuting 2 u..den tink agn..we used 2 share evry single moment..no mttr hw painful de xperience is..ask u agn..is dis wat u call TRUE fren??

wateve it is..hpe u'll hv a hapy lyf wif him..i dun even bother 2 noe wat both of u guyz goin thru..if u tink dat i'm stil exist in ur lyf as ur true fren..den bttr tink it hard enuf..dun trit me as ur rubish..hpe u understand wat i mean..if u tink dat i hurt u..den tink once agn..who's de 1 hurts de moz..