I'M NOT A SMALL CHILD ANIMOR!!!!! I ND FREEDOM 2 DECIDE MY OWN WAY N FUTURE!!!!!!!!!!!

i juz dun understand y my mum wana cntrl my decision-makin..y doesn she giv me any chance 2 decide on my own?? i'm big enuf 2 hv my own brains 2 tink..i dun mean 2 b rude..bt juz tink back..wen wil i hv my own decision-makin??? i noe i've bn wastin my $$ wen i've recv my salary/alowance..bt @ leas nw i'm tryin my best 2 learn hw 2 save up..cmon la..giv myself a bit of decision freedom..i wana learn 2 b a bttr prsn..i'm stil young adult..reachin 2 adult stage..i nd 2 learn myself 2 b cntrled..

plz mum..if u wan me 2 understand u..plz understand me as well..i'm nt a small kid animor..stop tritin me lyk one..4 once n 4 all..

tryin 2 understand..but it seems dat i can't n dun reali wana understand

i juz duno y is my head kip tinkin abt it?? but deeply i felt myself so regretful of aceptin my fren baq..wat is dis?? i juz dun understand y muz relationship b her 1st priority in her lyf?? wher's de frenship dat we hv juz built?? dun u rmmbr we've oredi 4giv n 4gt on each other?? HAVE U 4GTTEN ALL DOS TINGS?? wat r u actuali trying to do?? livin 2geder wif him n juz 4gt me LYK DAT?? how cld u..wen in tyms u're in dificulty or hvin probs..u cum 2 me..but nw..it seems lyk i've disapear frm ur lyf..is dis wat u call frenship??

it's bn a veri long tym we've nvr bn out 2geder as b4..u'll wait 4 me..n i'll wait 4 u..den we hang out aft skul..hw i miz all dos outings 2geder..bt nw u make it shater n dun tink cn fix it baq..i noe hw hard 2 mit each other since we're wrkin in diff plces..bt dat doesn mean U'LL 4GT ME AS UR FREN..if u fil dat hvin frens r nuting 2 u..den tink agn..we used 2 share evry single moment..no mttr hw painful de xperience is..ask u agn..is dis wat u call TRUE fren??

wateve it is..hpe u'll hv a hapy lyf wif him..i dun even bother 2 noe wat both of u guyz goin thru..if u tink dat i'm stil exist in ur lyf as ur true fren..den bttr tink it hard enuf..dun trit me as ur rubish..hpe u understand wat i mean..if u tink dat i hurt u..den tink once agn..who's de 1 hurts de moz..

whole day of slack..boredom..sleepy..n yawning!!!!!!

hmm...wat hapen tdy?? nuting much bttr 2 do @ wrk..call all de folow-up clients..hping n praying 4 appts..n dar it goes..i've made it tdy!!!!! dis wk i've 3 appts 2 mit up..hpefuly dun giv dem de shitty luk of mine..haha..wel..it's tru: CUSTOMERS R OWEZ RYT..ryt of being so typical customer..byk songe la katekn..btol2 nye sialan..haha..so bad of me farra..den celebr8 a short hapinez of gtting appts.den baq 2 norm..

aft lunch..in fact durin lunch..eat n chat 2geder wif my 2 fdeary colleague of mine..my "haney"s..haha..i've planed 2 go out wif dem 1 day..so b4 dey gt bk..i've made n adv bking 4 de both of'em..hmm..gals, jgn lupe kte nye "date"..5 MAY '07..OUR GALS DAY N NYT OUT!!!!! cnt wait 4 dat mmnt of tym..stil left wif few mins b4 my lunch tym's over..wen down 2 NTUC..bot sm junky..in case i'l go hungry agn..i bot mocha flavoured cookies..nuting bt tings asociate wif coffee flavoured tingy..haha..COFFEE ADDICT IS HERE!!!!!

@ 4..began 2 fil so slpy..I HATE MON N TUES..make me so damn slpy..cnt take it animor..til wen i'm in dis situation?? yawnin n sudden eyes shut of mine..WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lasly..i wen out n take a rest juz outsyd my ofis..den bot de junky agn (doughnut)..haha..cnt stop filing in my tummy..nt much of wrk n leads..so total super slack tdy..

n b4 i sign off..gt myself prepare 4 tmr's appt..n thnk GOD i've n appt in de aftnn..gt plenty of tym 2 spnd in de ofis..dats all guyz..reali wana go 4 n erli nappy..haiz..nw i noe hw it fils 2 b in a wrkin lyf n nvironment..BORING!!!!!!!!!! chiao 4 nw..

wat a hard working n day 4 me tdy

haiizzzz....so damn sleepy aft came baq frm wrk tdy..fils lyk der's no more energy 4 me 2 cont on wrkin..@ wrk..kena scoldin frm de mgmt..wth..our co's sales nw is d'creasin day by day..BUCK UP PPL!!!! die2 muz increase de sales baq 2 norm agn..

hmm..wat hapen juz nw aft wrk?? directly go 2 westmal 2 pay up my bill..den wen baq 2 my previous wrk plc..haha..where is it?? ENG WAH CINEMA..mit up my x-colleagues..hd a short chat wif my x-mgr..VINCENT..haha..stil rmmbr dem..wel..miz dt plc n de ppl so freakin much.lol..xcept 4 1 dat dun reali wana 'MIZ' so much..dat idiotic n pathetic "R"..hu miz him niwae?? n dat point of tym..i'm supose 2 mit dis guy..he's 1 of de x-DUNEARN student..haha..juz recently added him 2 my frenster..while waitin 4 him 4 nearly abt 45 mins..@ last he gt 2 show himself up..

met 4 a while..talkin abt de past in sec skul n n sm shitty stufz..wel..nt shitty la..bt mor 2 personal ques..wat we've done..hw many Xs in relationship n all de craps dat we've talk abt..wat's my 1st impresion abt him is reali tru wen i started 2 imagine de real prsn in front of me..i did luk thru 2 my 2000 sec skul yr bk..i luk out for him in his claz..wat makes me so surprised was he's in my 1 of my senior band's clazmates..haha..wat a coincidence..hmm..he's nt bad..gd lukin 2..nt lyk de previous image of sec skul..haha..so de slenge..n overall..he's nice n frenly guy..n ez 2 gt alg wif..haha..btr dun fall in luv arh..kip urself alert..

hmm..i tink dats it 4 me 2 typ it in..totaly 2 tirin n sleepy..*yawn*..tym 4 me2 go 2 nappy..hahaha..dat's it ppl..updatin sm mor soon :)

great discussion wif band mates

helo pplz..

haha..wndr u ppl out der tinkin weder i'm stil blogging in or nt..de ting is..mos of my tym i'm lazy 2 typ it in abt wat's hapenin..wel..dat doesn reali bothr me so much..WOW!! wat a reali great conversation n discusion i hv wif my band mates..1 of us planin 2 hv a trip in Bangkok..wel..2 me it was reali a long tym since i've nvr stepped in2 dat country..de las yr dat i've "touched down" was on de year 2002..i've bn der 2geder wif my mum n we wen in grp package..haha..4gt abt de past..

we wer discusin abt de trip..n we're nw in a procez of planin it..de budget..acomodation..trspt..n lots mor..it seems lyk i cant wait any longer 2 go out of S'pore on my own..reali miz my own trip so much..as in goin trips on my own w/out any cmpanionship(my parenz)..haha..i reali miz my sec 1 band trip 2 Sydney..loads of memories came 2 my mind ryt nw..hw i wish i wana travel wif my band mates agn..cut de crap farra!!..haha..we're all planin 2 go @ de end of June..it atracts me abt hvin 2 travel agn on my own..our objectives nt only 2 hv holidays..bt oso 2 hv music xchange..hw wonderful..niwae,i've nvr heard bands in Bangkok..bt wat heard..dey're talented n pieces dey play is so clean n smooth..jz lyk de original recordin..hmm..hpefuly i gt 2 mit dem IN PRSN..

k guyz..juz a short story dat i cn share wif u guyz..it's late n i hv 2 go 2 wrk tml..signin off nw..